The Fragile

Ok ok ive had this brewing in me all night and am just going to say it
I want to kill you by,
cuting your dick off,
sticking it down your neck,
pouring paraffin over you,
urinating on you,
then lighting you,
while tossing cans of beer over you

Thats better!!!!

A pissed off Jess

Walking the corridors of my mind,

Looking back at my past,

Looking back at the failings,

Looking back at the heartake,

Looking back at my "friends",

Looking back at my band,

Looking back at it all,

Staring into the darkness,

You know I havent a point anymore

Your all so fucking specal,
With your normal life,
your normal currect sex,
your people who love you as your sex,
Your normal upbringing as your sex,
Your everything,

You sicken me

I cant sleep,
I am so fearful my mother will kill me,
She seems so intent of hurting me :'(
Help

Hi everyone,
Its my birthday, a event that I wish had never happened,
you know am trying to change everything I am for someone whoes even doutful that she loves me,

No one really loves me :'(

I feel so that I want to die

cornflakes, kenco instant, salt and ice'd cappio ^^

I dont get it,
I comfit eat cos am depressed,
but am depressed cos am fat,
am fat cos I comfit eat,
AHHHHHH :'(

Yep am soo good, I dont self harm do I everybody? (sic) ^^ yey am so happy all the time(sic), So cute and cuddly (sic), I dont even have bad moods right?
yey happy >

This is bliss,
A bath full on ice,
Me in it,
Ice on every part of my body ^^,
Table top with laptop ^^,
And a fan pointed at my personals :blush:

Heaven after rosting in hell for 3 days ^^ NYAAA

yey and Wine Wine Wine Wine Wine Wine WINE!!!!!!!

Oh Andy, RE the call you gave me, I'd Love you to brake in here and "fuck me, till" I bleed please -sic-,
Am waiting for you with Loki and some golf clubs, What do I get for a hole in your head?, You know this time I will kill you or do you want to relive last time when you fucked me in the backstreet you TWAT, Please this time will be so delightful when I rip your dick off and watch you bleed grrrrrrr, What about I sing singing in the rain to you like you did to me?, You Know am so Pissed off and am not the girl you knew, I have people now and you know am not just your "pet" anymore.
This time I will stand up for Myself and Loki will turn on you,
Is it painful I wonder when I rip your balls out!!!!,

Fuck you

Jess

Dear Sam,
Next time we met I shall have your balls on a stick for the toothpase and panties joke.........
Bye

Jess

Dear Jessica,

I know you hate me, I hate you too.
Why dont you just fade away, You are a pile of shit, really why do you love someone who wants you as a guy?,
You are soooo ugly, your nails and hair is a mess, you go out drinking with loki and you know somethings going to happen.
You dont look after yourself , you disgust me and I hate you,
All your moodswings and emoutional supressing,
Just die

Hate you

Jess

Soooo cool ^^
Kill the Crazy Frog

Another day will dron,
Without me,
The Sun will shine brightly,
Without me,
Love will be free,
Without me,
You'll forget,
Without me,
The circle will be come complete,
With me gone,

If you are from any NHS Service, you are here by forbidden to read this or any other Journal entery without written consent

Hi -claws herself from the floor-
Just a note to everyone,
I feel ill, Im kinder losing grip of myself,
I cant sleep anymore,
I need my kitten here with me-sigh- shes the love of my life,
Am drained today,
Keep collapsing,
Yuck,
My mother still doesnt see me for who I am and dispires me for being a girl,
Am everyones toy or so it seems,
They dont see am not well,

Love

Jessica


See my Kittens art Krazy Katty and her triumphant return Young SasukeUzume
See our new Club DA-Sisters

DA-Sisters ^^ :heart: a club stated by ~darkangel836 and Me ^^

Songs of the moment

There Is No If....


Remember the first time I told you I love you -
It was raining hard and you never heard -
You sneezed! and I had to say it over
"I said I love you" I said... you didn't say a word
Just held your hands to my shining eyes
And I watched as the rain ran through your fingers
Held your hands to my shining eyes and smiled as you kissed me...

"if you die" you said "so do i" you said...
And it starts the day you make the sign
"tell me I'm forever yours and you're forever mine
Forever mine... "

"if you die" you said "so do i" you said...
And it starts the day you cross that line
"swear I will always be yours and you'll always be mine
You'll always be mine
Always be mine... "

Remember the last time I told you I love you -
It was warm and safe in our perfect world -
You yawned and I had to say it over
"I said I love you" I said... you didn't say a word
Just held your hands to your shining eyes
And I watched as the tears ran through your fingers
Held your hands to your shining eyes and cried...

"if you die" you said "so do i" you said...
But it ends the day you see how it is
There is no always forever... just this...
Just this...

"if you die" you said "so do i" you said
But it ends the day you understand
There is no if... just and

There is no if... just and

There is no if...

The Loudest Song


Side by side in silence
They pass away the day
So comfortable, so habitual...
And so nothing left to say

Nothing left to say
Nothing left to say

Side by side in silence
His thoughts echo round
He looks up at the sky...
She looks down at the ground

Stares down at the ground
Stares down at the ground

Side by side in silence
They wish for different worlds
She dreams him as a boy...
And he loves her as a girl

Loves her as a girl...

And side by side in silence
Without a single word...

It's the loudest sound
It's the loudest sound...

It's the loudest sound I ever heard

Ever wonder what is the point in your existence,
For me of late of late it feels like the following,
Trying to keep control of my massively erratic mood swings,
Trying to find point and purpose, in my life now,
Trying to both be me and not be a disappointment to a male obsessed family,
Trying to get the funding to get to see the love of my life,
Try to become the love of my life's, love and partner and
Find a reason to continue my artistic pursuits when I lack talent or focus

To Kim,

I love you more now that I ever have and if you'll only find it in your heart to let me try again my love. I want to be your forever no matter what the cost, after all its came this far :heart:, From this point am your to do whatever you want with as long as I can be considered yours :hug:

Sorry am not very talkative -sigh-

First up, One V3 Razr - Expensive brick that dont bloody work,

RevolutionONE - For not working as I want it too,

MP3 player - For braking my nail, you are the weakest link good bye !!!!!!!!,

PowerMac G4 - For crashing, Baby it was fun but you have to go, SMASH!!!!!!

Note Jotter - Shredded, so long sucker

Contents of my Bin - Tossed

Bloody bedside set of Drawers, Thrown down the stairs, Cos my top drawer wont open :$ left my stuff in it though :'(

Bye ^^

Am sick of you all trying to twist me to be all you fucking want,
its all "your too fat, too thin, your ugly, your too guyish, your too feminine, you need to be a man, I want you to be yourself, Your too tail,"
Look am sick of changing myself for you, Fuck off Fuck OFF Fuck OFF,


ground zero

Written from the content of a dream

I Stand Here,
Within the Remains,

Memories,
Of all who died here,

Silence,
All that remains here,

Photos,
The only sign of the people who died here,

Screaming,
No longer punctuates the silence as it did that day,

Soon,
All will be gone from this place and in time memories will fade but you shall never be forgotten